Breathe Songfic

Looking in my rearview mirror, I watch her house shrink as I move away from it, away from her, away from the last eight months of my life. It wasn’t easy to just leave. It took almost my entire will to continue my car in the direction it was taking instead of turning around, kneeling before her and begging her to change her mind. I couldn’t keep my mind on the road, couldn’t keep my mind off of what just happened. It got so bad that I turned on the radio to some random country channel so I could just rant at myself about the horrendous ‘southern’ twangs and ridiculous lyrics.

“Thank you for listening to the station that brings you the best country music. Next up is Taylor Swift!” A bright voice booms from the radio. I shake my head in disbelief that I would ever voluntarily torture myself, but it was imperative to get away from the insane cacophony playing in my mind. Strands of guitar playing reach my ears, and it was too soft so I jacked up the volume. The strumming of strings suddenly exploded in my car and I nodded. This was exactly what I wanted.

I see your face in my mind as I drive away, ’Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way. People are people, And sometimes we change our minds. But it’s killing me to see you go after all this time. Mmm mmm mmm Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm Mmm mmm mmm Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm

I sit up straight and pull over to the side of the road. I rubbed my ears. I wasn’t sure if I had heard the words right and I really wanted to make sure it was for real. I furrowed my eyebrows and sat there, carefully listening.

Music starts playing like the end of a sad movie, It’s the kinda ending you don’t really wanna see. Cause it’s tragedy and it’ll only bring you down, Now I don’t know what to be without you around.

My heart stopped beating as the words sank into my being. It said everything I felt that I couldn’t put into words myself. I missed her and I was only a minute from her house.

And we know it's never simple, never easy. Never a clean break, no one here to save me. You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

I remembered her long, silky, brown hair flowing down her back; the piercing blue eyes that could still melt my heart; the small, lithe, curvy body that fit with mine- the one that I knew about as well as I knew my own. She was the one who could keep me from my insanity and keep me from falling apart. And now she’s gone.

And I can't breathe Without you, but I have to Breathe Without you, but I have to

I knew that I’d love her even until I died. Every breath I took, I loved her with. I would’ve done anything for her. I would’ve died for her. Still would actually. I would’ve done anything to keep her happy, anything to save her from the evil in the world. Right now, my mind was going on a withdrawal without her. Could I do it?

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt. Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve. People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out. Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

My eyes close and in my mind I can see the tears falling from her eyes and hear her voice telling me how she couldn’t take the pressure and the pain any longer. Every word she said burned my soul, damning me further, pushing me toward the gateway of my own personal hell. I guess my trying to avoid problems with you wasn’t good enough. And there’s nothing I can do or say that’ll bring us back to what we were, to the times where love was life and there was nothing else. Every second I’m away from you now is another second of our fading love.

And we know it's never simple, never easy. Never a clean break, no one here to save meYou're the only thing I know like the back of my hand. And I can't breathe Without you, but I have to Breathe Without you, but I have to

Can I? Can I? I’m not sure if I could live without her. Breathing wasn’t possible except with her and her love. So, maybe living isn’t an option anymore. Living without her was a Mt. Everest- an impossible feat. Should I even try?

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend. Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me. It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend. Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me. And we know it's never simple, never easy. Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh

I don’t think she has a clue how much it hurts. As I’m sitting here just watching life pass me by, letting the depression overflow my mind, it’s hard to feel the pain. It’s like going through life without a leg or an arm- it’s obvious something is missing. I not only lost a girlfriend today; I lost my best friend; I lost the love of my life; and not just those, I lost my reason and will to live and continue going on in this awful world.

I can't breathe Without you, but I have to Breathe Without you, but I have to Breathe Without you, but I have to

I start my car, pull off the side of the road and speed down the street going way past the speed limit. I don’t care if I get pulled over, I don’t care if I get in trouble. I’ve got one goal in mind. The realization of what I’m doing really doesn’t hit me until I go to my room. But by then it’s too late because I’ve made up my mind. The song just keeps running through my head.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

I go digging through my drawers, trying to find my salvation. And when I find it, the coolness of it calms me down. I lift it up and close my eyes. All I can think is: I won’t have to.